There always something evil human being afraid of it,so do I.
The darkest evil in my heart was myself.Why do i said so?
This is all because of my own actions. I always doing something that hurt
myself. Friends always tell me i need to love myself before I love You but
the problem now is I thought i am loving you with my own ways and
i keep on suffer everyday. No matter what people say to me I just in with
my right ear and come out again the the other side. What gonna happen to myself.
What I do is totally wrong or right? Should I continue with all those staff?
Who can reply me? Will you reply me? The reality is I never exist in your life and my own life
whatever I do you wont fell it,and you didnt have any express at all.
Is my fate to face all this kind of staff? That day someone tell me that
this kind of thing have no one right
that mean I have no wrong at all?That mean I can keep continue live in my own world with
dream about you Joee Lao will accept me some day? OR I should forget about this all?
I want return back myself to a joker, but can i really do it? Now i really afraid of the darkest
in myself. I afraid whatever I do will hurt the people that surrounded by my side.
Do I still want to shout to all people that I LOVE you Joee Lao? Who can really answer my questions?
who can really save me from doing all those stupid things? Will I miss you and remember in my life?
Now my heart will keep saying yes but how about in my future? even after you get your marriage I still
live in my own world? even I die? Hopefully I will have my change for my own good.
God I wish and pray that you dont playing me around.I am okay with all those hard work or whatever will make me fall down to deep inside the earth but I cant accept she breaking my heart
like a shinning glass and then pretending nothing happen like I never exist in her life. I hope you stop
my suffer in my own love. I hope you destroy my memory about her from disappear in my life.
seriously I love you Joee Lao but I need to love myself also. I dont want after anything happen to myself I regret and make my beloved mummy cry.I want face my own evil and fight it so that there no more people
hurt because of my stupid actions.LOVE you in the same time equal to destroying myself so I want love you Joee Lao in the same time love myself no matter what you will forever in my heart become a sweet memory for myself cause my pain about you never lost in my mind. My own right or wrong let all the time decide for me and hopefully the time also will wake me up from my own world and save you the one I love from
keep disturbing by myself.
