Heart bleeding

Dream paradise one more night i cant sleep because of her. I saw something on her facebook yesterday night and after that i am starting emo, why? Why so effectiveness to me? Once again i don’t know why but my heart now does really fell. Why she can go out with the other guys she and so friendly with them and doing a lot with them but not me. Why can’t she give me a chance i know i saying that i just want that she is safe and happy in her life, but this one really making me fell a lot. I know there no topic even i go out with you, but i really wish to out with you. Why the other can go out with you but there a no for me? Is that my problem or what? Can you tell me? I really want the answer from you? Or may be  the problem on myself, cause i am not belong to here?or i am not like the others that born at Ipoh ? Why? Or others? My heart now fully pain.Why the God treat me like this?why send me to this world?why i must meet her?Why she wont look at me even once?i am fat? or anything?i really need the answers.Can you tell me?dream paradise should i close this blog?should i delete everything?she fell nothing and nice sleep right now but me?i am suffer for her.The god was unfair to me.or she treat me unfair?or because i am not know her at all.everyone tell me to observe with my eyes but unfortunately i was blind i not taught love is difficult but to forget love are the most hard.I am taught i am not watching other girl is normal i taught not talking about girl like man kit them is normal but i was abnormal,why i am damn stupid only can focus on her?even a girl pass is pretty is fell nothing cause i know i love her, i am totally useless.I was wish to die at this movement.I was wish to get your love.i wish to close to you, know you, doing everything with you.But…. i know i shouldn't like this.I shouldn't force you to love me.while i am writing this the rain drop from the sky and the god cry with me.I hope after this i will not cry any more.no matter through eyes or deeply insides my heart.haiz no matter what problem you have or I have I will still waiting for you even you fall in love for someone in future,cause love should be wait should be trust no matter what situation.I hope there a miracle will appear in front of my eyes.I LOVE YOU JOEE LAO.

you making me cry insides my heart

 

Dream paradise Joee lao really good,once again she make me moody once again she make me cry insides my heart.Last time i was hope to get away from her, stay far away from her, stop disturbing her or stop annoying her but I am useless i afraid of loosing her,i am afraid that i cant meet her anymore,i worried my days without her,what will i be?And there something happened last week i though i will be happy but i am doing more stupid thing go disturb chris tang.Stop it i dont want remind it anymore.what i face now is i dont know what can i do to her and myself.I really dislike to saw that she is moody sad,cause i am facing the same.I dont know what can i do to make her happy.i saying that i love her but i cant even make her life out of moody,how dare i said i love her.But i want to tell you that no matter what happened you still have me,anything you can find me,need a shoulder to cry you can have mine one.I know you have no feeling to me but i will waiting for you.I just hope that you can remember and look at me even just one time is already enough for me.I had had one heart so i will just have one love.And my heart only belong to you,you have it for your whole life.There no one can take my heart from you.

Something i wish to tell you

 Love life is full of frustrated one.May be is luck that we meet in billion of people but there also bad luck,do you know why?because wrong timing we meet that person or their heart already owned by someone else.And there

Heart

Dream paradise i got a weird feeling but dont know how to express it. And dont know why this two days while i looking to someone or something suddenly my view blur,what will happened to me you know?I just hope i am fine cause i am really go through tired week have to solo the assignment and chan tong i am sorry i know you want help me but never mind lar got me finish it,and i am sorry may be i am tired so is hard to control my feeling.And Joee Lao i know that you also tired and facing a lot yourself,but like i said i will always be there for you and try have a see to the human being body parts,there only one heart for each human being,you can choose to not love me,but i want to tell you no matter what i LOVE you,and dont always tell me that i will get a better girl in the future,cause there wont have ok?even one.Did you know why?yea i know i am not the one insides your heart but you insides my heart or more correctly my heart belong to you and only for you.Cause i am also just a normal human being only born with one heart.And it already falling in LOVE to you and it also only for you.I dont know about others guy but for me there only one and forever once is enough.This heart is only for you this life if mine,even you wont accept my love is ok for me,and i am happy that you still take me as friend,for me is already enough,i am love you not want you to belong to me just i want you to know that no matter what there still have someone waiting for you ok?i always and only be there  for you.And you cant even succeed changing my mind.One more is i never regret to tell you that I AM CHONG YIN TAT ONLY LOVE YOU JOEE LAO FOREVER AND EVER.刘宝（  ）我钟营达只爱你一个，心里也只回有你的存在，没有第二个。我爱你一生一世。

i love you - charice

I opened my mouth
it all rushed out spoken
though I never meant you to know it

I lost all of myself and got held in the moment
without even knowing

I stopped and got lost in my mind
I never felt so unraveled in my whole life


(chorus)
I said I love you, I love you, I love you
but now I'll regret it
I said I love you, I love you, I love you
but I'm sorry I said it

but what's done is done
I can't undo what's done
Don't wanna hurt this thing we've just begun
I know I've said it
but can we forget this?


I caught myself that I'm scared that we're broken
though you never do see it coming

and I don't know what, why or how our hearts are

hoping
my feelings are showing

I stopped and got lost in your eyes
I never thought you could make me so alive

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(chorus)
I said I love you, I love you, I love you
but now I'll regret it
I said I love you, I love you, I love you
but I'm sorry I said it

but what's done is done
I can't undo what's done
Don't wanna hurt this thing we've just begun
I know I've said it
but can we forget this?


(bridge)
Now I'm hoping your heart's open
words unfolded
Now you know and

I couldn't hold it all inside
Push it back in to rewind
Now my secret is spoken...

(chorus 2x)

I love you and now I regret it
I love you I'm sorry I said it
2x

bad feeling suddenly

Bad,dont know what happened to me today,so far everything go on well, but i fell unsatisfied with all of it.May be moody or what.i have no idea at all.At my education i am starting regret,i am starting fell unwell to my past stupid action.why i am never serious on it?why?no matter what the reason is all my fault.And i got one idea from kian yong when he making fun with me,that i am shouldn't give up right now,yes being is dentist is great for a son to my dad,but is already a reality that i am withdraw and coming to TARC.I am should not think much and must start hardworking on my education.And thank you kian yong you awake me that still got one thing i shouldn't give up that was my love to her.Is truth that i am lucky cause in a million or billion of people i am manage to meet her at here.Joee Lao you are really my lucky angel.you do awake me in many ways.You able to awake me for not sleeping in my world,you awake me that i should find back my dream,and so on.Dont know why today watching your face i got a new feeling,it was weird and i dont know how to explain.But strongly i want to let you know that i LOVE you and miss you very much.One more which i really know was my love to you,Joee Lao is forever,no matter what time is it,i telling you that i am trying to not loving you or what,is hard for me to make it.I does miss you every day,i does thinking of you every day.cause i know that i need you even you doesn't need me at all.I was wish you carry you at my back but no matter what i fell now i promise myself i wont get problem to you,so dont worry.Mummy i am sorry that i am not a good son for you,i never  trying hard on my education at all in the past,i am not a dentist or a doctor like every parents wish.i am sorry,but i promise you i wont let your life disaster,i will try my best try all of my love to you,your life will be colorful i promise.And Joee thank you for let me meet you.I LOVE you forever even a joker will sad,i still will continue love you Joee Lao,cause myself know that you importance to myself.I love both of you.^^

You'll Never Stand Alone Charice lyrics