i am trully not a guy

TAT:Dream paradise dream paradise i got something to tell you.
 Dream paradise:what just tell me i am in the fine condition now moody to chat.
TAT:today something hgappened make me look like i am not a guy i even i din ball.
Dream paradise:what happened actually.
TAT:Today i thought i dont want disturb her doing something annoying to her so i  try to stay      away from her in college but i still meet her and i din talk to her even smile to her how no manners i am how useless i am wohoo.i should change sex.
Dream paradise:you really too useless.
TAT:but i am totally moody now what can i do?i said that i dont want to disturb her but i lost contact with her i like falling myself to the evil want to kill people.
Dream paradise:tat just let go of her.do you want her get the best???
TAT:yes i am.
Dream paradise:then you should let her go.
TAT:but is very hard for me to do it,yesterday the time i tell her i wont disturb her anymore my i am already crying deeply in my heart.what can i do.
Dream paradise:nothing i can do,what can i do just advice you to let her go.
TAT:i wish i can but i am keep thinking of her wont stop for 24 hours even a second.The more i try to do the bad negative thing to her i fell more like just now in the afternoon i acting bad in front of her but after i get back to my room i am fell really really disappointed why i did something like this to her.And the more i try hard to make her lost in my mind the more i miss her the more i thinking about her the more i love her.
Dream paradise:nothing you can do now.even you miss her you thinking of her you thought she will know or not?she wont thinking of you ok?
TAT:but
Dream paradise:no but yea you miss her you love her so you should not disturb her anymore.keep yourself away from her is the best to her.
TAT:i will try to stay away from her but i am sorry in my mind i cant lose her.i will keep thinking of her love her always always.but i wont let her know.i am sorry dream paradise i want some rest cause i cant sleep at the whole night just thinking of her.
Dream paradise:better you go for have some rest.dont think too much already.
TAT:thx if wasn't you my blog here i dont know where can i release the load i am taking

my heart cry like killing a pig

TO:HEART STEALER
Dream paradise dream paradise you are bleeding right now.even you also dont know what happened right?cause everything come fast and go fast.Yesterday finally dream paradise making the decision and ask this blog heart stealer and dream paradise know that from the beginning he already making the worst decision to disturb her life.He cant do anything now and he already promise that he wont disturb the heart stealer anymore,but can he do i???even myself dont know the answer.if you ask he in the past is she important to dream paradise?the answer confirm is yes but if you ask dream paradise right now the answer is remain the same.But because dream paradise love her the heart stealer Joee Lao dream paradise think he should not disturb her anymore,he should let her go,he should walk out of her life.But yesterday after dream paradise meeting and watching something so he making the solution to ask the one he love and actually he already making decision no matter what he will let the girl go,he think this is the most suitable to each.because dream paradise knew that the girl should get better than him,cause they are still young there still got a lot will appear in their life.so what?love her you should let go love her you should doing the best for her.and the real prince who only can make you happy make your dream come true heart stealer.is not easy for dream paradise to making this decision and i am saw dream paradise with my own eyes that he pretending nothing but his heart now crying such as the the animal that sacrifice itself the eye drop like raining.dream paradise said to me that he is fine but he cant even sleep yesterday night,he go out with bicycle go to the place that no one talking with him and he round and round the place but his heart already like a glasses that drop and separate into pieces.dream paradise thought he will be fine he will be ok but all happened is opposite,and what can he do now is touch his heart and ask do you want the best to her?to do that just let her go.no more disturb.even now you crying deeply in your heart dream paradise dont know that he would still in this blog his create or not,cause walking in here he fell a lot but in just a memory in a dark space in universe there only sad for him.but i chong yin tat promise you dream paradise as long as i still love the heart stealer i still will be here,.all i will do is post something let dream paradise life longer and the love he found but not belong to dream paradise still going on,let the journey going more far.Dream paradise i know that you are very tired and pain even you willing sometimes she even din telling you the truth.cause from her face you dream paradise want to solve the problem with her but she just said i am always fine.and she even doesn't  give you a chance to be friend with her.so what can you do?now close yourself more longer journey you go more hurt more pain you will got.No matter what i will still here with dream paradise,to love you the choice i got is go away from your normal life.Hope that you will lost your memory that you know me and in your life dream paradise,chong yin tat,vincent chong and little princess this character doesn't appear in your life,its all fake is not the reality.forget all about it.,go back to your own destination.I LOVE YOU.

FROM DEEPLY HEART

DREAM PARADISE

Eyes

 

Eyes in an organs that god give us to detect light and view every beautiful part of this world.And some with funny when a male looking to the female they the guy will classify as lecher and flying an item to hit them.funny?one more funny here that girls will always said the boy is lecher but my friends always told me that they not lecher and girls should proud that a guy looking at her means she pretty and they just watching the beautiful art.How speechless i am.Yea previous that looking a girls is normal for me but after i met you,i cant control my eyes o looking  at you Joee lao.you such a pretty angel princess from the sky and you born with an amazing attractive eyes.And in my memory that only twice we looking at each other and one of the memory so awesome.At that time i watch your shinning eyes in dark while i am sitting at the swing listen to music with closing eyes and you want to frighten me,but when i open my eyes i am really want the time stop and watching you for more times.you really making me shock that time.You really got an pretty eyes,watching your eyes you like can tell me that you tough you can doing everything by yourself but sometimes when i watching to your eyes i can know you are sad with something,i hope i can do something for but you always not telling me the truth,what can i do just sad with you.I hope that you can share your sadness with me and one more person knew your problem one more people can give you opinion and idea to settle everything. you are a good listener to myself,you will hear the problem i face and advice me and call me to cheer,i hope you also like that.And human being is born with tired,sometimes watching you tired but you still force yourself to operate,you not a robot please,even a robot or electric component needs to charge to fill back its energy.I wish i can be there for you doing the all with you sharing your tired.And the most and lucky now i haven't watch it is your eyes drop,cause when you raining my heart like broken into pieces.And one more you eyes when telling me cheer will making me happy like flying in the sky.I love your pretty eyes princess.

Key

In our human being reality there are normal that we using a key to open our house lock.But in the other hand in human being natural feeling love also need to use the right key to open the heart lock of your life's partner.So do i, i found my lock but i am not the right key for you Joee lao.But although that i still love you and wish i am the key for you.

I wish i am the key to open your heart lock to recognize you more to know you well to protect you to love you to sharing all with you to sacrifice only for you.

As the key i wsih i am the right key to open your heart lock and taking all action only because you with not broken myself into two.

As the key i will looking for the inner you,try to change because of you,try to sacrifice myself to make your dream come true.

As you are the lock i hope that you are not  too tired and i wish you selfish a bit for yourself dont just studied and work try doing something you like doing something you wish to. cause knew that you tired i am starting worried and i am felt sad.
As the key i hope after the lock is open you not forget about me cause i will broken my heart into pieces.
AS the key and lock once we separate i will start missing you thin king of you and worried about you.
As the key i m wish i am always besides you take care of you sharing everything with you and hear what happening around you as when you like when you wish.
As the key i am starting losing myself my key curve because of you.
No matter when no matter what what you doing how you forget me i also wont forget about you cause facing you i am always the loser.
No matter what no matter how i am always love you lao poh meng.

question mark

 

 In our human being universal there always a questions in a person mind,so do i.I always have the question mark to the one i love Joee Lao.

1.Why i love Joee lao???

 Because in my eyes you are special and you are different compare to others.

2.Which part i love you???

I love all of you,i love your attractive electric shot eyes,i love your nose,i love your pretty smile mouth,i love your black long hairs,i love your funny move,i love that you are cute,i love that you are kind,i love that you are friendly,and a lot a lot in my hearts.

3.Why i am always miss you???

This question i cant answer cause it naturally my heart my mind as controller to miss you every days every times every seconds until today is 235 days,5640 hours,338400minutes,and2030400seconds.

4.Why i am always thinking about you???

Because i am dont want forget about you.

5.Why i am always moody because of you???

 Because in my heart you already represent all my feeling my emotion my mind.

6.Why i am always face disappointed.

 Because sometimes i cant even receipt back your message when you are busy.and i am cant even got a chance to ask you out cause i am a tortoise hide insides my shell.

7.Why i am always worried about you???

 Because i am afraid of losing you.

8.Why i am always steering at you???

 Because i am dont want a prefect face lost in my mind.

9.Why i will jealous???

 Because i am love you so i am jealous.

10.Why you cool to me???

  Even you cool to me i am do nothing cause i am always the loser in front of you.

11.Why i like didn't recognize you at all???

 Because not the right timing i recognize you.

12.Why i dont know you at all???

 Because i am even dont have a chance to know you well.

13.Why i am wish to the hero to protect you???

 Because i dont want anyone to hurt you.
14.Why i am always hope besides of you???
 Because you are weak i wish to save you from dangerous.
15.Why i wish you meet you every days???
 Because i want make sure that you are happy.
16.Why i am wish i am the joker for you???
 Because i am want you out of stress and only optimist things will happened to you.
17.Why i am always wish to change for you???
 Because i want to be 100% marks for you.
18.Why i wish to be with you???
 Because i wish to share all of myself to you.
19.Why i will stopped talking in front of you???
 Because i want to keep the time as a memory for myself even i hope that time can stopped only for you and me.
20.Why i am always post something about you at my blog???
 Because i want you to know and wish to show you i am missing you.
The questions making me to ask myself and to answer the questions that I want to said I love you Joee lao the amazing girl appear in my life.

casper the friendly ghost

After a long time stopped only I wrote back my blog. A lot of event happened between my family, my friends and me. And in the process everything is going on there are smile, laugh, sad worried, disappointed and proud. But although a lot of event happened in my mind I still remember you thinking about you miss you and love you Joee Lao.

To love you Joee Lao I wish I am the Casper friendly ghost.

I will miss even I am dead and as a ghost.

I will keep my eyes on you fly around you accompany you everywhere you go.

I wish to do everything to you even I will disappear myself as a ghost.

I wish I can protect you even I cant touch everything in this world.

I will use the last power on myself to sacrifice myself to make your life colourful and the dream you want come true.

Even I just a small size Casper ghost I will fight against the ghosts or evil who try to make you scare and keep your smile on your face.

At the night I will make you sleep to take your rest and full of energetic in your life and going through with happiness.

After a long time stopped and a lot I cant wrote much but will be a lot and a lot for the next coming soon.

I am love you miss you thinking about you worried about you Joee Lao. I am wish I am beside you right now.

Pegasus

After 2010 today 3-1-2011 this is the first time i am upgrading my blogger,after this i have to focus on my final so my love to you Joee Lao at here will stop for few days but i promise won't stop in my heart.Today what i am going to write is Pegasus.
Besides unicorn and swan i post before Pegasus is also an amazing animals that may be only appear in our imagination,and may be it life at another world that human being dont know.
I want to believe the appearance of Pegasus in my world as i want to believe in myself that i am love you Joee lao.
Believe the existence of Pegasus just like i am believe the existence of love between human being but just in my dream.
Believe of Pegasus i want to turn myself to the Pegasus to show to people that it not an imagination it really exist just like i want to show you my love to you i want to share my heart beat to you.
To be the Pegasus i will following all the rule to keep myself as a secret in human being world similar i hope i can hiding myself following you as your guardian that wont have anyone can hurt you.
As the Pegasus i will bring all the impossible to everything is possible make you life become colourful make you dream come true make the love you believe exist and make the smile in yourself appear on the snow white face every days.
Being the Pegasus i will do all for you sacrifice myself to you give all myself only for you and heart breaking only myself who know.
As the Pegasus i will sacrifice my mysterious wing for you to make all the mysterious only happened because of you.
If i am manage i will take you fly around the world spending time with watching all the marvelous phenomena that will happened in this world.
I will bring you to the wonder world that you will only laugh at there forget all you upset there throw all the dangerous around you.
I will using the special magic on myself to making the world nice for you give you all the white that never get polluted irritated you.
I will fight against the evil that surrounded you.
I will also fight a long with the bacteria that make you sick fell uncomfortable.
But to love you even myself as the Pegasus i am always the loser that lose to you.
so i choose to miss you,imagine about you,get hurt because of you in my love world wish only got you.
I hope i wont give you the empty promises as a Pegasus
All of this because I love you Joee Lao.