suddenly

suddenly a lot of thing happened to me.all my family members now not in the mood.am i doing mistake???can i changing the world?can i be selfish?why still got offer letter?am i really need to change?or should i go russia for t a medic???i can predict my future.why my dad like that why he always making me hate of him?why everything suddenly happened so easily and hardily to solve?who can tell me what should i do?why the arrangement by the god is not fair to me?why?why my grandpa still want me go back take care of our own paddy field?am i so useless that cannot study?i dont like this.i want escape from all of this.i just want a normal life.who can understand me?who know me ?